For Almost Twelve Years...
the Pain of Infertility Dominated my Life...

For almost twelve years the pain of infertility dominated my life.  My life revolved around monthly charts, calendars, thermometers, fertility pills, surgical procedures, costly pregnancy tests and five heart wrenching miscarriages.  The pain of being childless was immobilizing and all-encompassing.   I became unable to celebrate the pregnancies of my friends, unable to attend their baby showers, and unable to attend church on Mother's Day.  Everywhere I turned, there were babies...except in my arms.  My one goal was to be a mother, and I was a failure at even that seemingly simple task.  Until...

One cold day in February of 2000, at the urging of my mother-in-law, my husband, and I attended an adoption seminar held by EAC.   Immediately we both knew this was how our family was meant to grow.  We needed children to fill our hearts and home, and EAC showed us pictures of children and these were the children without families.  Without a doubt, this was destined.  Within four months, we were holding our two precious babies.

Today, one year later, I simply cannot imagine our lives without our two angels.  I am privileged to me awaked in the wee hours by a tiny voice crying "Mommy"! I have the honor of being the one my children turn to for kisses on their "ouchies."  I bathe those tiny perfect bodies and hear their giggles when I reach the ticklish spots.  I have the joy of being a mommy!

The pain of infertility was horrific, but cannot match the joys of motherhood and adoption.  The pain is forgotten in the overwhelming joy our children bring to us each day.  For us, there is no issue of blood relation or biology.  The issue was "no children versus two angels" or "pain versus joy?"  For us, the choice was simple - the joy of adoption.  My one regret is that we waited so long to do it.

Darlene